An Essential Key to the Manifestation Puzzle & Using the Law of Attraction

I get many questions on the topic of manifesting, so I want to share one of the keys that seems to be frequently missing from people's practices, and is very important. People say manifesting is one of my talents and I'm grateful that the process works well for me, but in the past I’ve definitely thrown my fair share of tantrums. I’ve been meditating an average of at least an hour a day, every day, since 2008, and had been meditating on and off since high school, so I have a pretty close relationship with God and don't just theoretically grasp a lot of spiritual concepts, but actually experience them, so some of my tantrums have been fun.

The 6-year-old inside of me used to go off at times like, “I Am One with God! I Am made of God, in the likeness of God! I have God’s creative power! I Am One with God, I Am One with All and with EVERYTHING! And I say I have ______!! Now!! So, where is it??! Are spiritual laws out of order today?”

And God would just be like, “Cute. I’m a let u finish and all, but yes, you’re absolutely right. You do have ____. It’s right inside of you. Go find it within first and THEN we’ll talk.”

And I'd sit there pouting, “Heeey! That’s not what I meant. C’mon…..” But I know better. No more negotiations until I do as told. Of course one can always pray for help and grace finding it inside, but pretty much no more negotiations on the outside thing until I start letting it flow from within. I know the drill by now. So I’ll share it.

You can understand that God is inside you and that you are God, and may even KNOW it and experience it through meditation, but you have to know how to apply it to your life.

You’re One with God, so what? Well if you’re One with God, that means everything is in you and you have access to everything.

So in practical terms, what you need to do for manifesting purposes, is you need to get to the ESSENCE of what you desire to manifest. Why do you want what you want? What will it bring you that you’re seeking?

Let’s say, for example, you want more money in order to get to do more things that make you happy. Well understand that happiness is already within you. No one GIVES you happiness. It wells up from inside. It’s ALWAYS there, you just have to know yourself in order to know how to get it to flow. But realize the happiness you’re trying to obtain is ALREADY within you. This means you DON’T have to trick yourself into believing you have what you seek in order to manifest it. It’s already there. You just have to go within, find it, and activate it. When you do, THEN the Law of Attraction works to bring to you what you were attempting to manifest to get to that state. You have to be able to know how to get yourself to that state first, so you know you have it and can appreciate it inside of you. And so you aren’t all needy and depending on outer things. Don't approach the Law of Attraction feeling lacking or incomplete. When you feel that way, that’s what you attract. If you’re happy, you attract more happiness.

People try to dumb it down for "the masses” a little. And that’s why they give all those visualization exercises. Really they’re just trying to get you to the place where you FEEL like you have that thing you want, so that the emotion within you is triggered and you have what you want so you can attract it. So they’re trying to get you to what I wrote above.

And you’re kind of being tricked into expanding your consciousness and waking up in the process. If you do the above for a period of time, pretty soon you will, on your own, realize that you have everything inside of you already. And if you continue on that course, it leads you to a place of trust and surrender. When you go to pray/manifest, you realize you don’t have anything to really ask for because you already have everything, so your intentions start turning into things like, “to express more joy,” “to share and give more love,” “to find more creative ideas within me.” Rather than specific things in the outside world. But in turn you do end up attracting people you’d like to share that love with and situations that cause more joy to express through you. You're just surrendering the details and the hows, which is great because often God will give you more than what you even had in mind and you're no longer limiting yourself.

So, if you feel something is missing in your life, figure out what you need to find within, and go find it. Get to know yourself so that you know how to trigger that feeling of joy within yourself, that feeling of peace, that feeling of freedom, that feeling of love. Quests for love in the outside world don’t tend to go so well until you realize all the love you have within yourself and know how to use it. Just like how you shouldn’t expect good sex if you don’t know how to work your own body. Get to know your heart, just like you learned to get to know your body and how to make pleasure and bliss well up inside yourself. Because yes, those things are within you too. The orgasm comes from within you, not from the outside world.

“What you perceive as lack is often a part of you you haven’t discovered yet.” So, go discover. Ask. Ask your soul to show you joy. Ask your joy to come forth from within you. To show itself to you. Allow it to seep through your whole entire being. There are universes inside of you. Explore them. Most people don’t use a huge percentage of their brain. What’s laying in those parts of your brain?

Some quotes from Danielle Gibbons (channeling the teachings of Mother Mary):

“If what is going on outside of you is not to your liking, it is simply because something inside hasn’t awakened yet. And what is without reflects what’s within.”

“It is not your past that imprisons you, it is not the events of the past that imprison you, or your present that imprisons you. It is only your inability to awaken to yourself."

“All that happens around you in your life is a natural extension of what’s going on inside. If you want to know why someone or something is or isn’t in your life, go within. Not to know that answer specifically, but just to know self.”

The great news is you have everything inside you that you need to move past what you perceive as your pain.

And here is one of my own meditative insights from earlier this week (which triggered me writing this blog):

"Joy is accompanied by the feeling of "my cup runneth over." Giving you that beautiful joyful glow as it pours over. So it's perfectly understandable why people try to accumulate & accumulate, more & more, in attempts to simulate the feeling of joy. Which eludes them because they completely gloss over the obvious- joy flows forth from within. "The cup runneth over" from within. Not the other way around. You can simulate all you want, but it's just that and it's so fleeting. You have to do it again and again. And all the work involved in the simulation, along with the continued empty feelings afterward, are exhausting."

BTW, as you start activating all these beautiful things within you, you have no choice but to feel abundant because you discover how many gifts you have to bring to the world. So much love to share, so much joy to bring, so many creative ideas, so much beauty…. Your cup runneth over.

And because my life tends to be so synchronistic (I love it), Rev. Michael’s topic today was very on point with what I wrote in this blog (which I wrote Friday night, but didn’t have time to post). Awesome. The whole service is beautiful but you can fast forward to the 26 minute mark for his message:

http://www.indigoplatforms.tv/recorded/video/616



EXTRA: I actually just looked at my notes from last week's service and there were also some parts directly on point, so I'll paste those excerpts below (not word for word, but close):

-"In this particular chapter that you’re co-writing with the Presence of God, you’re starting with, 'I ALREADY have everything. What am I going to DO with it?' That’s the question you’re asking yourself. 'I’ve got it all! What am I going to do now? I have the love and the peace and the harmony. I used to be blind. I used to think that it was coming from out there. And I was begging people for it, and trying to get it, and manipulating. And now that I know I got it, what am I going to do now?' Then creativity gets born in your awareness ,and you find innovative ways to express the Divinity that is within you. That becomes life-giving, uplifting, inspiring, life-transforming, healing, EVERYWHERE that you go!... So if you find yourself bored, asking for life to give you stuff, you’re suppressing your creativity. Because you’ve already got it."

-"Your question when u wake up should be, 'What good that is within me am I going to let out today??? Shock me! Surprise me! With the goodness that is within me. Shock me until it shatters my ego! Shock me with so much love, that wants to come out of me that it shatters my belief in separation! Shock me with so much creativity and so much beauty that wants to come out of me, that it scares my surface mind! 'Oh did I do that??! Did I love that deeply? Did I share that deeply? Did I give that much? Oh my God!!' And then you'll be dying daily to mediocrity and being born anew to EXCELLENCE. You will not grow old bitter and complaining about how life has done you wrong. You will grow younger every day because you will have made a new discovery about the depth of your being."

Two Quick Manifesting Techniques for 2011

Happy New Year beautiful people!!!! :-D

And here's my little New Year's present: 2 quick, effective tips to help you manifest your dreams and desires in the new year.

1)Manifesting things you consider really big and important to you can become a bit challenging sometimes because the more important the thing is to you, the tougher it can be to detach. And detaching is an important step in the manifesting process. So to deal with this issue my friends and I like to trade manifestations.

Grab a friend and agree to spend just 5 minutes a day visualizing for each other. So 5 minutes during your day you visualize what she’s in the process of manifesting, as done. You see her/him having it and enjoying it. Your friend does the same for you. And your friend is able detach from the outcome a lot better than you are. The first time I did this, Lezlie and I exchanged manifestations on an index card. We wrote our manifestations as done on those cards and each put each other’s cards on our work desks, taking little breaks throughout the day to just say the affirmation for each other. I believe about a week later we both had what we intended to manifest.


2) Another little tip to help you stay on top of your visualizing (also a great tip if you’re intending to watch what you eat): tie your visualizations to your meals. You eat every day so you won’t go a day with visualization and you’ll be a lot more conscious of every time you put something in your mouth because you have to go into visualization mode. It’s fun. Basically during every meal/snack (any time you put food in your mouth), you pretend you already have what you’re intending to manifest. So if it’s being a millionaire, every time you eat, you visualize you are eating as a millionaire would. What bag is in the chair next to you? Who made your meal? What are you wearing? What do your surroundings look like? How do you feel? Or if you're intending to be in a happy, healthy relationship with your soul mate, during every meal visualize them next to you. What are you guys talking about? What does your soul mate like to eat? What are they into? What are they wearing? Visualize you’re making food for them too, etc. If you’re manifesting being thinner, what does a thin person eat? How does a thin person feel? What does a thin person value?


Get it? So basically every time food goes in your mouth, it’s your trigger to start pretending you already have what you are attracting to you at the very moment. It’s a very useful strategy and it also helps you get clear and specific.

**BONUS: Today is the perfect day to go all out on your gratitude practice. Sit down with a pen and paper and list EVERYTHING you're grateful for from 2010. Go month by month. This will help you kick off 2011 on a positive note, from a place of fulfillment and plentitude, and gratitude always puts you in receiving mode so you can receive what your heart's been asking for.


Enjoy! Happy 2011!!! May this year bring you more greatness than you can even imagine!

Giving Away Free Healings and Crystals!

I really love water. And I really love people. So as one of my New Year's intentions, I'd like to raise $5,000, which is the amount needed to build a new water project, and give people access to one of the most basic needs- clean water.

80% of all diseases in the world are caused by unsafe water and poor sanitation and just a $20 donation buys one person clean, safe water for 2 decades!

In order to raise funds for the well, I'm offering healings. For every $10 donation, I will put your name in a monthly raffle (ex. if you donate $40, you get 4 raffle entries). At the end of every month for the next 3 months, I will choose 4 winners. 2 winners will receive a cleansed, consecrated, and programmed energy crystal ($35 value). The winner can choose whatever crystal they would like from www.powertreasuresonline.com. The other 2 winners will receive a distance energy healing ($180 value).

I will also send positive energy to the list of people who donate ANY amount. I've never had a donate tab on my blog because I look at my blog as a way of being of service and tithing. However, if you have ever wanted to donate to me or find my blog useful, please consider making a donation to this project. Here is the link to the project and where you can make a donation:
http://mycharitywater.org/healingforwater

100% of all donations go to the water project, none to the organization's administrative costs. All are tax-deductible and you will see where your money went via pictures/GPS coordinates once the project is built.

Above all, you'll be making a huge difference in the life of another human being. Can you imagine not having clean water? I drink tons of water so just the thought of not having water immediately makes my mouth feel dry and causes the emotion of anxiety. And that’s without even thinking about the health aspects. Having access to nearby water also gives women a lot of more freedom and has a positive impact in many ways. Here’s some more info on that:http://www.charitywater.org/whywater/

So, literally with every $20 donation you are giving someone the gift of life and freedom. The website has tons of info and has videos of the projects and so forth: http://www.charitywater.org/media/videos/projects.php

This really means a lot to me and I appreciate every little bit of help. I know sometimes issues can feel overwhelming, but if we pull together we can have a serious impact on many lives. Thank you soooooooo much for your help and generous heart!! May your donations come back to you 100-fold!!

Link to where you can make a donation: http://mycharitywater.org/healingforwater

Sex and Energy/Spirituality. And the Not-So Elusive Female Orgasm and the Not-Too Soon Male Orgasm

This topic has been coming up a lot lately and it's very important, so I want to address it. Sex is a central part of energy/spirituality and energy/spirituality is a central part of great sex. I’m a little short on time right now, so I’m going to take from things I’ve written lately and give helpful links. I’ll blog more about sexual blocks at a later day, but today I wanted to focus more on how to improve your sex life, and in turn, your spirituality. Sexual energy is crucial in the development of spirituality, and spirituality/energy work takes sex to whole other levels. This blog can be relevant even for those who are abstinent because you still have sexual energy that you can transmute and can derive benefits from. And you can learn to do everything below while being abstinent.

Today, I was in a discussion about the “elusive female orgasm.” But the female orgasm is really not elusive. The average statistics state that only about 30% of women orgasm from just intercourse alone. Some scientists believe that women can’t have an orgasm without clitoral stimulation period, and say the women who do have orgasms during intercourse are able to do so because anatomically these women have a short distance between their clitoris and vaginal opening, which causes clitoral stimulation during intercourse.

However, most women who practice Taoism or Tantra in their sex lives will likely tell you that’s not true. You are actually able to orgasm without even being physically touched. People commonly do so while practicing Tantric Fire Breathing. Anyone can learn how to do this, and experiencing it can bring a powerful perspective shift when it comes to the female orgasm, as it becomes clear that it’s not all that elusive.

You can check out Barbara Carrellas, the author of “Urban Tantra” doing so on the tv show Strange Sex, while scientist scan her brain to make sure the orgasm is legit: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qeMMRAwBXE8. And speaking more about it on CNN: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=afYVK4GTKGk Barbara offers workshops, and you can check out her books and work at: http://www.barbaracarrellas.com/

I think it’s worthwhile for every woman to learn how to not only do this, but to become multi-orgasmic and have full body orgasms. Otherwise, you’re missing out on the amazing possibilities that your body is holding. There’s absolutely nothing wrong with clitoral orgasms, but they’re short and not half as intense as a full body orgasm. When it comes to sexuality, I recommend to clients (and myself apply) Master Chia’s Universal Tao practices. Practicing his exercises leads to being multi-orgasmic and having “beyond orgasms.”

Plus these exercises make you a better lover. I was introduced to his work when I was in the process of becoming a Reiki Master. In order to become a Reiki Master you have to be able to hold a Kegel for a long time (about 4-5 minutes). And Master Chia’s exercises help you get there fast without you even noticing. Also through this practice, on top of being really good at sex, you can actually heal your partner through sex- like the song. Anyone can be a sexual healer.

Here’s his basic book for women (and the website has free lessons):
http://www.healing-tao.com/tao-garden/universal/en/healing-love-through-the-tao.html

The male version of the book teaches men how to “go all night.” It teaches the basic practice of having orgasms without ejaculating, which allows men to keep going during sex. This is a great skill to have being that I just read that the average male ejaculates within 2-6 minutes of starting intercourse. Master Chia also teaches men how to have full body orgasms and how be multi-orgasmic.

Here is that book:
http://www.healing-tao.com/tao-garden/universal/en/taoist-secrets-of-love.html


Definitely go slow and heed all the cautions in these books. Kundalini Syndrome isn’t fun. It might help to take a Kundalini yoga class at the same time or take a workshop. Oh and I'm not receiving anything from posting these links. Except for the good karma when your sex life improves, which I'll happily accept.

I also just noticed he has books called “Multi-Orgasmic Man” and “Multi-Orgasmic Woman,” I haven’t read those so I can’t recommend them, but I thought I would mention them for anyone who wants to check them out, since the titles make them sound on point.

The rest of my input on this topic is going to be cut and pasted from a note I recently wrote saying that I really wish they would teach this stuff as a sister course to sex education in high schools (where parents could opt their kids in if they want). In the note I detailed the benefits of learning Sexual Alchemy (what Master Chia teaches).

Excerpts:

If there is one aspect of spirituality that can make a huge difference in your normal day to day physical life, this would probably be it. And it’s sad that people miss out on it.

I find there’s a big disconnect between women and their bodies/what their bodies can do. On top of the percentage of women who can orgasm from just intercourse being ridiculous, most women don’t even know when they’re the most fertile, that they can move their sacrum w/o moving their hips, how to squeeze their different diaphragms (or that they have multiple diaphragms.), and I have friends who’ve never had an orgasm (period- not just with a guy). There seems to be a disconnect between men and their bodies too. I’ve had a few men look at me like I’m crazy when I’ve informed them they can orgasm w/o ejaculating and therefore have sex much longer. I always thought there were enough pop culture references to this for it to be common knowledge....

While yes, you can argue that being able to derive huge pleasure from sex/your body and have multiple orgasms/”beyond orgasms” will pique kids sexual interest even more, they’re ALREADY going to have interest in sex regardless. And that’s the part that would make the class attractive and make them pay attention. Because who doesn’t want to know how to be really great at sexually pleasing their partner?? But then there’s the other side.

It would be awesome for kids to learn how to transmute sexual energy. That would be SUPER helpful. It’s not good to tell someone to be abstinent but not tell them what to do with their sexual energy that’s going to be there for them to deal with regardless. That causes unhealthy energy blocks. And then guilt if they act upon it (so many women have told me they thought the world was about to end the day they lost their virginity- they thought God was going to punish them). Knowing how to transmute your sexual energy makes being abstinent much easier and increases your creativity. And for those that aren’t abstinent- you can have tons of sex and still transmute the energy to increase your physical health, creativity, spirituality, vitality, youth, so it’s a good skill to have.

Transforming excess energy also helps people not need things like drugs to expend their energy on and decreases emotional turmoil. And, on top of learning to transmute sexual energy, this discipline also teaches people how to form heart connections before having sex and their importance, which could be a pretty big shift in regards to how people treat sex partners and the amount of respect given to each other and what they are doing….. I mean sex has been devalued to a crazy level in our society.

Universal Taoism teaches that mutual respect and love are prerequisites for good sex. And that, “To establish and maintain a good sexual relationship, the energies of both partners must be on the same level. They both must be healthy physically and emotionally, and they must be on the same spiritual level. Then when the two people are together, their energies- physical, emotional, and, finally, spiritual- will unite as one.” (Master Chia). Otherwise, turmoil tends to come about. I think this is a great foundation to give.

Above all, the best aspect to me would be helping people grow up with a healthier view of sex. I rarely come across anyone who doesn’t have emotional issues with sex/related to sex, usually due to unhealthy views (men have JUST as many if not more. And do you know how backwards it is for them to try to NOT be present during sex and think about something else?? That’s always tripped me out). It would be great for people to have a foundation that doesn’t bring dysfunction. And for women to be comfortable with their bodies and know the magic their bodies can bring. You should know your body- you live in it. It’s a great gift, and so is sex. Not only did God invent sex, but he made it the ONLY possible way that the human race could survive. Clearly He saw value in this act. Beause He could have chosen ANY other act to REQUIRE for us to survive (like rubbing noses or dropping an egg in a nest or something).

And also to shift the culture around sex overall… You don’t have to degrade women to have a good orgasm. You can have a “beyond orgasm” that’s 100 times better without any of that stuff. And maybe all this can transfer to healthier marriages and relationships because people develop much stronger sexual (and spiritual) connections and understand the nature of their sexual pleasure better. Your sexual intimacy increases so it’s easier to openly communicate about things. It may also decrease infidelity because sex is on another level with the partner you share a love connection with.

I always recommend checking out Taoist sexual practices to clients in my 10-week program. I really don’t think anyone should be deprived of it, so I wanted to share.

Also, wanted to add that sex can be very important to spirituality because its one of the most basic ways people experience Oneness. Aside from that, being able to transmute sexual energy to your crown can significantly increase your spirituality.

One last thing: You have two creative centers in your body, 1) your throat chakra and 2) sex chakra. One creates words and art, and the other life. And the 2 chakras are connected- a problem in one, affects the other and vice versa. So a healthy sex chakra is important for creativity. And on that note, you were made in the image and likeness of God, and if there's one thing we FOR SURE know God likes to do, it’s create. Make sure you are expressing your creative gifts. As not many things will frustrate u as much as not being able to express them & not many things will bring as much overall happiness as being in flow while creating.

How to Work With Your Ego & Insights from a Self-Healing on Procrastination, Sabotage, & Competition

I journaled some insights/major shift the other night that might be useful to others. It’s always good to see how others break patterns and what causes the patterns. Since I do healings all the time and meditate every day, I tend to have a lot of self-insight that helps with self-healing and so I don’t mind sharing my experiences. Particularly since I’ve learned a lot from watching others heal.

Last week I was working on huge project. Suddenly my computer started malfunctioning and not letting me work. To the point I felt like throwing it out the window. And I was about to use it as an excuse to get out of meeting a deadline.


But out of nowhere, it hit me that I had a really long pattern of procrastinating on assignments/projects until last minute and then finding an excuse to ask for an extension or to get out of it. I can remember doing this all the way back to middle school. Nicole and I always joke about “ don't treat this like a paper extension!” Its a joke about how we always get extensions and are like, “Whew! We have two more weeks! Awesome!” and then go play and do everything else and then the night before it’s due again we’re like “Uhoh!!! How did this happen??” And we (used to) do that with everything. Like if we have to be somewhere and are running late but then it gets moved back 2 hours, somehow we’ll mess around and still be running late 2 hours later. (btw, I was very rarely ACTUALLY late, just always waited until last minute).

I decided I needed to go ahead and release this pattern.

I went into meditation and asked what was going on here, and immediately realized that it was my ego doing it. Here’s what I got back: 1) Feelings of unworthiness- which cause self-sabotage, and procrastination is self-sabotage. 2) Fear of own greatness. 3) Fear of not being good enough or smart enough. And it was a crazy set up from my ego, because my ego would procrastinate for those reasons, and to make myself get mad at me, dislike myself, and feel out of control. Looking for self-punishment (that’s what guilt does), perpetuating it further and creating a repeating pattern….

So after knowing what was up, it was time to release all of the above, but I needed to get my ego to cooperate because I could feel it was holding on tight.


Here are some blurbs/insights from my journal written right after releasing.


-ON GETTING THE EGO TO SUBMIT:


With all this talk over the last few days about Christ teaching to “Love them until THEY submit,” I was thinking about one the most applicable situations… Your ego. NEVER wage war on your ego, as tempting as it might be. Don’t get mad at it and lose your temper or try to scare it with threats. That’s what it was trying to get you to do. It wants you to get mad at it so then it can play the victim and go into self-pity. “Ah, I cant believe I did that. I’m a terrible person with no self-control. Ah, I’m so mad at myself. Why don’t I have more strength? What’s wrong with me? etc.” Plus with more self-h*te and anger towards yourself, you’ll be weaker. Instead, love it into submission. Send tons of unconditional love to it. Let it know it’s safe. Have a conversation with it. Make a compromise. Tell it the change will just be a trial and if we don’t like it, we can go back to your way. Get it to calm down, to mellow out, and relax for a second, so that you can let go of the negative cords, negative patterns, beliefs, or emotions you want to release and make the changes you want.

Remember to look at your ego as the scared 4 y/o child inside of you. Treat it with understanding and compassion. Comfort it and you’ll get much further. If you make it feel safe and loved, it will be much more cooperative and your inner wars will diminish. If you don't, it will kick and scream and hang on with all its might. And Dr. George Washington Carver’s advice that if you love something enough, it will reveal its secrets to you is very applicable. When you send love to your ego, it will open up to you and reveal its secrets.


So I went with that. Instead of yelling at my ego, I sent it tons and tons of unconditional love and said, “Don’t you feel all this unconditional love from God, from the Divine Mother, from me? Don’t you realize that no matter what you’ve done you’re still loved unconditionally? In your opinion you really f’ed up tonight by doing other things instead of working on this, and yet you’re getting more direct unconditional love now than last week before you got yourself in this mess. See?? Calm down.”

And I asked it to please just relax and move aside so we could let go of the old negative patterns that were being held. The ego complied. We had a long talk about its different issues and a lot was released.


MEDITATIVE CONCLUSION FROM THE HEALING:

"Shift your intent/life goal/perspective from trying to be the best at whatever, to loving. Instead of trying to be the best at everything and seeing the world as an endless competition, your focus will be on just to love." My inner voice started saying that and it really helped when it came to releasing the fear of own greatness and the fear of not being the best or not being good enough. The ego was scared to release these things because it thought life might get boring if it wasn’t always trying to compete for something. What would it do? Because it didn’t know anything else. “If you’re not always trying to be the best or have the most, how will I be entertained?” it asked. Loving. That will give you the best life. Cultivate a heart of love as big as the world, as you say at Agape. Love as much as possible, share as much love, build with as many people, build intimacy, be of service, spread joy, find different ways to love. Just love. Love. Create. Life will never be boring. It will be full joy, happiness, expression, and adventure. The ego was also scared to let go of the need/desire to always be the best because it thought if we didn’t care, we would then be bad at things, and it couldn’t deal with that thought (it’s the ego after all). I told it to stop it. That when we let go of that need to be the best, we’ll still be amazing. Because everything will be based in love and that’s always filled with greatness. In fact, all miracles come from love, as do the greatest works. And God, the Divine Mother, Archangel Gabriel, the Holy Angels will be there to work through us, and will work through us more easily because we aren’t in the way. Everything will always be clothed in the greatness of love and God. You can’t go wrong. And the ego calmed down and let go. Of course, this was while asking for the constant help of the Divine Mother’s grace and mercy, compassion and love.


A little more from journal on the fears that came up during the meditation-before the conclusion:

-Fear of not being good enough, not being smart enough. So would rather not do the project/assignment. Or do it with an excuse just in case it’s not good enough. The belief that just me is not good enough was released. Ego said, “People assume we’re smart. I don’t want to prove them wrong. Maybe we’ve just gotten lucky every other time??” I carefully explained, "Ego, you’ve done this a million times before and you’ve done fine every time. Why are you still scared? Do you think you’re going to be less good at it than last time? It works the other way around. You get better with practice. Let go of the need to compete. Let go of the need to be the best. It’s not supposed to be a competition. That’s not what life is about. If it was, then all the people in the rat race wouldn’t be so unhappy after winning the race and constantly needing to find a new race. You know this from experience. Released beliefs of inadequacy and not being enough. With the grace of the Divine Mother.


-Fear of own greatness. I’d always felt a lot of resistance to this concept. Felt impossible to me. But because of the resistance, I knew it had to be present. Particularly since the feelings of unworthiness had been present and this fear comes with a “Who am I to be so great?” There was a serious thickness and feeling of heaviness as it was releasing and I talked to my ego, telling it that it was okay for us to be great and to release whatever this fear was tied to. That lead to releasing a fear of it being lonely at the top. Of people being jealous. Fear that if I’m more successful or get better at things, it will be a bigger challenge to find a romantic love partner (WOW! All those guys who try to play mind tricks saying things like, “wow it must be really hard for someone as awesome as you to find a guy on your level to date. That must suck, ” had crept into my subconscious w/o me noticing! Who would’ve thought?) And in my head I heard the voices of people who tell you to dumb down a little to make men feel more secure. I told my Ego that we believe in soul mates, remember? So that stuff is irrelevant. And reminded it, “If you believe in soul mates and you’re still waiting for yours, he won’t arrive until you’re willing to be more authentic than you now are in this present moment." You can’t attract your perfect match if you aren’t even being who you truly are. So releasing fears that keep us caged in or restrained will be much more helpful than trying to be small. And because you actually really love people, they love you back. You will never be lonely- top or bottom. “Who am I to be so great?” left easily due to my strong feeling of Oneness with God. You can't refute God's greatness.”


Those were the blurbs. Oh, and my computer started working right afterward and the project went 150% perfect. It exceeded the person’s expectations (though I stayed up for over 48 hours to finish).


Also, wanted to note, because it comes up with clients, when you work through something big, chances are you will re-visit multiple times. Usually going into deeper layers every time. So if you worked out something 2 years ago and then suddenly it pops back up, don’t get upset thinking, “But I thought I let that go already!” You did. But there’s a lot tied to it. You probably let go of a huge portion of it (and certainly noticed the improvements in your life), but now you’re getting rid of more. Rev. Michael often analogizes it to having a super dirty car and washing it. Then you look at the car and notice there’s still a spot there. That spot has been there the whole time, but because the entire car was dirty, it blended in. Now that the car is clean, you notice the spot and some fixate on it like, “WTH?!” Just note it’s normal. Especially with big, normal themes. Don’t trip. The above is a great example of this. Most of the above wasn’t new and it’s healing 101. But while a lot of that stuff had been released, I needed a shift in worldview in order to evolve even more and the stuff that was still there helped me go back in and shift.

Looking for Something to do on Diwali?

Happy Diwali!

If you are looking for a way to celebrate or want to learn more about this beautiful Indian festival, Master Stephen Co posted a great live stream today explaining the spiritual aspects of Diwali. The video also includes a cleansing of energy and he leads you through chanting and a meditation specifically for Diwali. Oh and he energizes your prosperity chakra. So, I thought I'd share!

http://pranichealing.com/stream/diwali-meditation-live-master-co

Powerful Exercise for Being Happier & More Compassionate Towards Yourself

Wow, I had a really powerful experience/exercise tonight and I wanted to share it because I think it will be helpful to a lot of people in some way or another...

The exercise immediately brought an old, pretty private, journal entry to mind and I thought I’d start there since it shows what the exercise is for and the place where I used to be back then, and know from experience a lot of people are there. Then I'm going to talk about my experience last night, followed by instructions for the exercise (so you can scroll freely). I wrote this journal entry at the very beginning of my “Dark Night” when I was 24 (I'm 28 now) and I’m sharing (unedited) because I think that’s why entries and experiences like these come through:


Perfection

The depths of my soul can be really scary to explore. If on the surface I seem complex, then I don’t think there is even a word to describe what’s underneath.

I have a happy disposition towards life but can be prone to sadness at times. Sadness usually takes over me when I’ve let myself down or am not happy with something about myself. Or when things are out of my control.

I learned early on how to thwart such sadness. Any time I feel myself plunging into such a state, I like to pull out a journal and start analyzing what about me I’m not happy with and start listing all the areas of myself I’d like to improve. From character, to sense of humor, to education, to new talents, to the physical. I make my list and then write out the steps I will take to get there. After this exercise, I always feel much better. Even if my original state of sadness had nothing to do with myself. Just gaining control over something and having a plan for improving it makes me feel better. I’ve been doing it for years. It’s almost an obsession with bettering myself and striving for perfection. And as long as I think that I’m going to be a better person in the future, then I feel better.

Today I found myself plunging into a deep state of sadness. Because of a small, insignificant event. Someone I care about slighted me. I felt negative feelings rising up within me. A strong dislike for him growing.

I plunged further and locked myself up in the bathroom, bursting into tears.

For no reason really.

Except an insignificant guy.

I glanced in the bathroom mirror and tried to focus on my new perfect teeth. I never got to go to the dentist as a kid due to lack of money. As a result I never got the braces I needed and I had chipped teeth from the playground days that had never been fixed. Upon graduation from law school, I worked with a dentist to try to correct all the problems. My teeth are finally fully corrected. So I stared at them. Trying to smile and focusing on how much better they looked. They’re perfect. But instead I found myself staring at the new sun spots and freckles on my face. I’ve been in the sun way too much.

I stared at myself and felt ugly.

Maybe if I get more beautiful……

I reminded myself that I now had enough money get sunspots and freckles lasered off if they really bothered me. “Its not a big deal J. They’ll be gone in a few months if you want. Make up can fully cover them til then. It’s not a big deal. You can call a doctor tomorrow.”

Maybe once I get the freckles and sun damage removed……..

I moved on to my hair. It’s not as long and full as I’d like. “You can get fancy hair extensions too. The bonded kind that don’t mess up your real hair. The kind that your industry friends have.”

“And you can get the pretty eyelash extensions that all your friends are getting as well. Those make everyone’s eyes look beautiful.”

Maybe when I get rid of my freckles, get hair and eye lash extensions….

That would be major improvements. I’ll definitely be prettier.


But that’s not enough. It wouldn’t be enough. What else? I stared more intently into the mirror.

Maybe if I lifted weights every day and lost the 10 lbs I’ve gained….


But before I gained the 10 lbs, that still wasn’t enough. So I know that losing 10 lbs won’t make me feel much better. That’s something that I need to do. But wouldn’t make a difference in me.

Suddenly my mind flashed back to our tour guide in Venezuela who had offered us “Health and Tourism” packages. He said he could take us to the Miss Universe surgeon as part of a tour package and we could get whatever done.

Maybe if I went back to Venezuela and came back looking like Miss Universe….


Would that be enough?

Suddenly I remembered that my most beautiful friends tend to be the ones with the major psychological problems and drug addictions, and that maybe I should focus more on improving my mind or internal things.


Maybe if I accomplish more……

Maybe once I get my first book published…..

Maybe once I get good at photography and get an exhibit going…..

Maybe when I travel the whole world…..

Maybe once I fully brush up on my history and philosophy…. When I can remember off the top of my head what Kant said, what Nietzsche said, what Aristotle said…..

Maybe once I learn to speak Portuguese and Italian. Then I’ll speak 5 languages…. That’s impressive.

Maybe if I learn to play the piano.

Maybe if I learned how to cook more dishes. International ones.

Maybe if I go back to Shao-Lin and finally get my black belt.

Maybe if I can get to the point where I never have a negative thought about anyone.

Maybe when I’m perfect.

Maybe what???

Who am I trying to be perfect for?

I never even meet men that I really like like that. One of my deep fears is that I’m never going to find anyone that I like enough to fall in love with.

So for what then? For who?

For myself?

Do I need to do all that to love myself?

But don’t I already love myself????

I mean there is no one I’d rather spend time with than myself.
I thoroughly enjoy my own company.
And I am sure that I’ve BEEN past all my insecurities.
And that I fully love and accept myself.


But then who is it that I’m striving to reach some level of perfection for?
Who is it that I’m trying to impress?
Who’s love is it that I’m trying to gain?
And if that someone doesn’t already love me without all said improvements,
Then is that person even worth all this struggle and work for perfection?
And if that person isn’t worth it………
What if that person is me?”


EXPERIENCE TONIGHT:

Years after dropping those behaviors, that entry flashed back into my head during an exercise tonight.

I work with the chant “Om Mani Padme Hum” every day. It’s the mantra used to invoke love, mercy and compassion, and has tons of benefits. It brings blessings of love and compassion from God, opens your heart, fills you with love and compassion, it can be used to shower other people with the same, and it has a “wish fulfilling” effect as well. It can be used in different ways, but I’ll talk about how I generally like to use it(actual instructions in section below w/pronunciation). I usually sit and visualize the people/things I’d like to send love to in front of me. I start with the whole earth, then family/friends, people who need love at the moment, anyone I feel upset towards, anyone I like a lot (to open my heart to them), etc. On the “OM” I visualize my heart as a big pink Lotus flower opening up completely, and on the “Mani” I start sending love from my open heart to the person. In between each chant I breathe in the blessings that always start to pour down immediately, being very receptive. Then I chant it again (usually at least 2 times per person/set of people).

This is super helpful for forgiving, particularly for people like me who are always WILLING to forgive people. I always want to forgive and think I do. But chanting “Om Mani Padme Hum” towards someone always lets me know if I’m still holding something because my heart and chest suddenly feel tight and my heart doesn't feel fully open at first.

Well today out of nowhere, I decided to chant it towards myself. I had never thought of doing that before because as the channel of the blessings, you already receive them, so sending the blessings you are already receiving towards yourself seems unnecessary. But for some reason it’s just where my meditation went. And OMG.

I’ve never ever felt my heart get so hard and closed during this chant before. Ever. And I’ve used this chant on just about every person who has ever “wronged” me (serious things like rape included, and of course people like exes included). And my heart hadn’t been half as hard or as closed towards any of them. The second I that realization hit me, I immediately started crying. And the entry above flashed through my head as it sunk in that I was still holding the habit of being harder on myself than on anyone else, and that I don’t tend to treat myself with the same compassion/empathy I treat others. While I do love myself fully it was still easier for me to be more merciful towards others than towards myself. That’s not a fun realization but very true for many people. You tend to be your toughest critic and expect a perfection from yourself that you don't expect from others.

Watching my own heart slowly open up more and more towards myself with every repetition of the chant was kind of crazy. And it caused more tears (but healing tears) as I released all that junk from my heart. In between each chant, I accepted the love and compassion being showered upon me from God, and from myself. It was a very healing and awesome experience. And I’m now adding myself to my “Om Mani Padme Hum” list. It’s totally getting added to my 10-week program as a suggested every day practice starting from day one(hey, you’re getting it for free). Because not only does it open your heart towards others and fill you with peace, love and compassion, but it allows you to be more loving towards yourself and to let go of whatever you are holding against yourself.


INSTRUCTIONS:

1)Sit in a comfortable, quiet place. I like to keep my feet on the ground (helps ground the energy received).

2)If you need help with pronunciation, you can click on this video and go to the 16:10 min mark (this is exactly how I chant it): http://pranichealing.com/stream/urgent-meditation-bless-mexico This practice for me has largely evolved from Pranic Healing practices.

3)Invoke for Divine Blessings and set your intention. You can pray to whoever you’d like, however you are invoking the more feminine aspect of God, so I’d suggest including the Divine Mother in one (or all) of her manifestations, particularly as the Buddha Quan Yin, or as the Virgin Mary (and/or any of her manifestations) if that resonates more with you. And ask for what you want to get out of this (blessing the planet, receive blessings in the form of ___, forgiving, etc.).

4)Place your hands on your lap, opened, palms up. Ready to receive, or release.

5)Close your eyes and visualize yourself standing directly in front of you.

6)Now chant “Om Mani Padme Hum” as you send yourself love and compassion. Start by inhaling in and allowing Divine Energy to enter your crown and flow down to your heart. On the “Om” visualize your heart as a big, Lotus flower opening up completely, and on the “Mani” start sending love from your open heart to yourself (visualize pink light coming out of your heart, project it towards the image of you in front of you and fully covering it). In between each chant, breathe in the blessings that immediately pour down through your crown and allow yourself to receive. Then chant it again as many times as you feel like chanting. I always repeat at least twice for everything. When doing it on yourself for the first time, I’d go with at least 10 times.

7)Before you chant to bless yourself, you can (and I’d suggest) chant to send love to your loved ones/other people. So do everything above, but while visualizing other people.

8)Give thanks for all the blessings, love, compassion, mercy, and whatever you asked for.


A LITTLE EXTRA BACKGROUND INFO ON MY EXPERIENCE, FOR WHOEVER WANTS IT:

Funny, earlier this week I started taking a new course working with the energy of the Divine Feminine because I’m trying to put a big course together and this week I was focusing on the power of receptivity and allowing yourself to receive…. And I majorly picked up one thing from the first class (that was like a side note in the course)- She asked, “When was the last time you allowed yourself to be loved?” And that just really got me. while still sitting in the class I wrote a new affirmation, “I now completely allow myself to be loved.”

LOL, and at the same time, for the last couple of days I’ve had the song, “I really miss your hair on my face, and the way your innocence tastes,” stuck in my head NON-STOP. I had been thinking, “What in the world?? I don’t have anyone I miss! Why is it stuck in my head??” Granted I’m doing choreography to it (chosen by somebody else), but its never been stuck in my head all day long like that- and it was only those two lines. Then last night someone commented on how I attract a lot of men who will do a lot of crazy things for me. And I was about to complain that while I may attract a lot of really extravagant high-profile men/millionaires that other women might love, the nice, more down to earth guys that I’M actually into don’t seem to show much interest in me, but I stopped myself and instead said, “Okay this is a serious pattern. And I’d like to release it. What is in me that keeps attracting this pattern into my life?” I asked before I went to sleep and when I woke up this morning, guess what was the first thing in my head? The two lines above. I sighed in frustration but decided to reach for my iPod and see if there were any clues in it. I didn’t have to go too far…. LOL, the title read, “Better than Me.” The direct line following the 2 lines that were stuck in my head says, “And I think you should know this, you deserve much better than me.”

I thought “Wow. Hmmm…. So…… apparently I think the really nice guys I like deserve better than me. And I attract really high-profile guys that I’m not into like that in order to superficially feed my ego, but not get too involved. Because as I realized earlier this week, I haven’t been too comfortable with allowing myself to be loved. And its apparently tied to guilt I’m holding...”

And THAT would be the consequence of being harder on yourself than others and not showing yourself the same understanding.

That was this morning. Then this exercise happened tonight. Just some background to show how nothing is ever without meaning and how everything always ties together. Make sure you are open to the clues.